challenges and difficulties
She is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing herself freely and openly is not easy for Denise. Nikita Denise tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of her "performance" is an important task for Nikita.
She is very conscientious, responsible, and concerned with her duty, her public image and reputation, and becoming a person of stature in the world. Nikita Denise understands the need for hard work and careful planning in order to accomplish anything substantial and she is capable of much self-discipline and patience once she sets her sights on a goal.
But Nikita Denise is very judgmental and hard on herself if she fails to attain success, and she can become dry, bitter, or cynical if the world does not recognize her efforts.
Nikita Denise becomes tense and upset rather easily. She becomes irritated by the unwillingness of others to make changes. In her eagerness to see her inspirations materialize, Denise is inclined to forego tact and diplomacy in favor of achieving her goals. Her occasional outbreaks of brusque, insensitive behavior often do more harm than good.
She prefers to work alone rather than with others. Content on her own, Denise tends to become inhibited when she is with others, especially women. Nikita Denise may feel that the effort required to be with others is too great and probably not even worth it.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Nikita Denise instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Nikita Denise needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
She is capable of withstanding outside influences and remaining constant and steady on her path, but when under stress Nikita Denise becomes downright obstinate and implacable, resisting any change no matter how necessary or desirable the change may be. Tenaciously trying to preserve the status quo and hold on to what she has, she is apt to ignore the subtle signals she receives about needing to do something differently, which often leads to a crisis.
Nikita Denise needs to learn the limits of her ability to control life, and to accept and even embrace change and loss of the familiar, in order to allow for new life and growth. "Letting go" is a major life lesson for her. Denise also needs to develop a balanced attitude toward her appetites and desires, as Nikita Denise tends to overindulge and/or deny herself excessively.
It is in her relationships with others that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Nikita Denise between acting spontaneously and being true to herself versus modifying herself or her behavior to suit others. Nikita Denise seesaws between being inordinately concerned with her self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about her. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Denise's task.
The following are specific activities that will support Nikita Denise in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Denise, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Nikita Denise should be willing to become more of a free thinker, to experiment and change, to loosen her ties to tradition and the known and to allow for new developments. She needs to practice getting involved in an area involving new techniques, rapid changes and innovation. Nikita can be part of the avant-garde promoting such changes - be it in science, music or social relationships. Nikita Denise has to be willing to be different and perhaps to be considered eccentric or odd.
Nikita Denise seems to have an innate sense of cosmic awareness and is likely to have strong psychical or metaphysical talents. She is inclined to join some parapsychology groups where she may share her unusual experiences with others.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 10th house
Saturn Square Uranus
Saturn Opposition Moon/N. Node
N. Node in Scorpio
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Uranus
N. Node Conjunct Neptune/Pluto