challenges and difficulties
Hilton both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable with others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting herself be known in a deep way does not come easily to Nicky, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Nicky Hilton is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Hilton.
Hilton is generally not a "joiner" and she does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Nicky Hilton does participate in a group, she may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or she may simply feel that she does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Nicky Hilton better than being with groups of her own peers.
She is suspicious of groups, crowds, and social organizations. Hilton is quick to pick up on social charades and insincerity and avoids the limelight and glamour. Nicky Hilton is direct and to the point in speech and manner, stubborn and inflexible, and often unwilling to communicate her innermost feelings and thoughts.
Nicky Hilton tends to have inner conflicts between her responsibilities and what she would like to do. Hilton may weigh her duties favorably against her desires, making it very difficult for her to be truly happy.
She is inclined to exercise self-control and tries to suppress her inner excitability or irritability. Hilton can be somewhat self-willed, though, and strive to be independent. If Nicky Hilton feels that someone is holding her down too much, she may suddenly break up the relationship.
She is inclined to be somewhat withdrawn and has a hard time discussing important matters with her family and close relationships. A serious and deep thinker, Nicky Hilton would like to explain her views to others, but has a difficult time finding the right words.
Although Nicky Hilton generally is happy, at times she could become a bit inhibited and because of this, she may let good opportunities slip by occasionally. Although she is interested in people, Hilton also tends to seek seclusion periodically.
Nicky Hilton strongly rebels against any restrictions and may have the desire to break away, over-throwing all thought of responsibility. On the other hand, limitations in her live also could suddenly pass away, leaving Hilton free to do her own thing.
Nicky tries to build her life on solid ground, but may find it difficult to move forward, because she always tends to look back. This could result in feelings of inferiority and periodic moods of depression.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Nicky Hilton instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Nicky Hilton needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Nicky Hilton needs to take what she has learned (either through formal education or her own questing and life experience) and share it with others, communicate it or express it in a way that can benefit others. Knowledge and understanding, which does not enhance either Nicky's quality of life or that of persons in her world, is of little real value. Putting Hilton's understanding, philosophy, and convictions into practice in her daily relationships, and in the multiple choices she makes every day, will enable Nicky Hilton to really test her belief system and discover more about life.
When under stress, Nicky Hilton is apt to seek refuge in imagining that the grass is greener elsewhere, rather than working with what is at hand. Nicky Hilton needs to cultivate her ability to live in the present!
It is in her marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. She may see the qualities that she needs to develop more fully (described above) in her partner. It is important for Nicky Hilton to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in her life who express such attributes, as well as to develop them herself. Nicky Hilton has to put energy and attention into learning about others, and about herself through others.
Nicky Hilton tends to be a bit too idealistic and may place too much hope on her relationships, resulting in frequent disappointments. Nicky could be attracted to naive people, but some of her contacts also may turn out to be swindlers.
Nicky should use extra care in her relationships with people, for she could easily end up in the wrong crowd. Nicky Hilton could be the victim of fraud and falsehood or through association may become an accessory to malicious action.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 11th house
Saturn Conjunct Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Moon/Jupiter
Saturn Conjunct Moon/Uranus
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/Asc.
Saturn Conjunct Jupiter/MC
Saturn Conjunct Uranus/MC
Saturn Conjunct Asc./MC
N. Node in Gemini
N. Node in 7th house
N. Node Opposition Jupiter/Neptune
N. Node Opposition Neptune/Asc.