challenges and difficulties
Poydar doubts her own intelligence and mental capacities, and she may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Nancy is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for her.
Poydar is generally not a "joiner" and she does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Nancy Poydar does participate in a group, she may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or she may simply feel that she does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Nancy Poydar better than being with groups of her own peers.
She is serious and sincere about her interests, does not accept superficial answers and is not easily placated. Nancy wants her inspirations to become reality and she does not mind upsetting a few apple carts in the process. Nancy Poydar becomes impatient with others for being hesitant to implement new ideas and take action, and her occasional outbreaks of brusque, insensitive behavior often do more harm than good.
Nancy Poydar tends to be shy, sensitive and stiff with her emotions and may have difficulty expressing her true feelings, even though her affection for someone is there. One of Poydar's parents may have been too strict and unloving, and so Nancy may fear close relationships.
Her attitude toward life is quite serious and she is very thorough. Nancy has the need to be by herself and think out everything very carefully before she takes action. Nancy Poydar may enjoy doing some type of creative art work shaped from hard or heavy materials.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Nancy Poydar instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Nancy Poydar needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Nancy Poydar's path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Poydar's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Nancy Poydar is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Nancy should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Nancy Poydar can offer the world at large.
It is in her dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Nancy Poydar needs to integrate in tangible ways: how she makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what she does with the resources she has. Nancy Poydar should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
The following are specific activities that will support Nancy Poydar in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Poydar, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Nancy Poydar should care for and nourish children, plants, pets or other people. She needs to make a home, create and sustain strong relationships with her family or a community that can support her and give her a sense of safety and belonging.
Nancy Poydar should develop her listening skills and deepen her understanding and appreciation of women and their perspective. Nancy Poydar has to learn to trust her own feelings, intuitions and emotional needs. She needs to care for herself in an accepting, non-judgmental way.
It is in Nancy Poydar's best interest to take all that is good and helpful from her past and use it in a new way. (If she is so inclined, Nancy may want to explore the potential of past-life regression to tap into gifts she has already developed).
Nancy Poydar tends to associate with weak or negative people and is inclined to find most of her relationships rather unfulfilling. Feeling like an outsider, Poydar gets the impression that others try to restrain her.
Nancy Poydar tends to be a bit too idealistic and may place too much hope on her relationships, resulting in frequent disappointments. Nancy could be attracted to naive people, but some of her contacts also may turn out to be swindlers.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 11th house
Saturn Conjunct Uranus
Saturn Opposition Sun/Venus
Saturn Opposition Mercury/Venus
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Conjunct Moon
N. Node Conjunct Mars/Saturn
N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/Neptune