challenges and difficulties
Kushi both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable to others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting them get to know him intimately does not come easily to Michio, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Michio Kushi is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Kushi.
Michio may be plagued by fear of the unknown, of change, and/or of death. He strongly resists changes and transitions rather than greeting them with curiosity or a spirit of adventure, which makes them much harder for him.
On another level entirely, Michio Kushi is very careful about joining forces, and especially his material resources, with others. Kushi wants to keep his own and other people's property and assets very distinct.
Michio has an inner conflict between idealism, hope and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression due to limitations and practical realities. Michio Kushi needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve his aspirations. Kushi will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Michio Kushi strives and struggles a great deal with his ideals or spiritual aspirations. He may go through periods of self-denial, asceticism, and in-depth study of religious philosophy and spiritual practices, or he may lose heart and become cynical about religious ideals; however, he can never quite divorce himself from his idealistic concerns.
Michio Kushi has a tendency to feel inadequate, perhaps even unlovable, and he tends to withdraw from others. Consequently, Kushi may feel lonely and out of touch with everyone, and that he has no support from anyone.
Because he lacks self-confidence, Michio Kushi has the feeling that his luck has abandoned him. He is inclined to sit and wait for the right opportunities to come along, place too much emphasis on wishful thinking, and then get disappointed when nothing happens.
When he is with others, Michio Kushi may often suddenly become inhibited. He is inclined to be afraid of confrontations and probably will avoid group activities as much as possible.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Michio Kushi instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Michio Kushi needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
When under stress, Michio Kushi is apt to shut off the flow of his emotions and ignore his needs and feelings in order to do what he perceives as his duty or simply what the practical realities of the situation dictate. This can lead to a certain rigidity and inflexibility. If overdone, self-control, self-discipline, or an exaggerated concern over what society, family or others expect of him, makes life more of a burden than an adventure.
Fostering his tender, caring, feminine, and nurturing aspects is an important step in Michio Kushi's growth. Michio Kushi needs to learn how to nourish and lovingly tend to both himself and others. Letting himself be taken care of sometimes is okay!
The arena he is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. Michio Kushi should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials he feels he possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
The following are specific activities that will support Michio Kushi in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Kushi, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Michio Kushi should care for and nourish children, plants, pets or other people. He needs to make a home, create and sustain strong relationships with his family or a community that can support him and give him a sense of safety and belonging.
Michio Kushi should develop his listening skills and deepen his understanding and appreciation of women and their perspective. Michio Kushi has to learn to trust his own feelings, intuitions and emotional needs. He needs to care for himself in an accepting, non-judgmental way.
It is in Michio Kushi's best interest to take all that is good and helpful from his past and use it in a new way. (If he is so inclined, Michio may want to explore the potential of past-life regression to tap into gifts he has already developed).
Michio Kushi's path to wholeness involves confronting his dark and hidden recesses, bringing them out into the open, and transforming himself in the process. Healing abilities develop as a result of Kushi's willingness to experience and transform deep emotions such as grief, anger, and pain. Furthermore, bringing light to the darkness and pain in the world without becoming overwhelmed by it is a significant challenge for Michio.
He is highly emotional and tends to display his feelings in a theatrical way. Michio Kushi seems to enjoy being somewhat eccentric and finds it difficult to adapt himself to others. Although he may seek emotional fulfillment, Michio does not do well in relationships and teamwork surroundings.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 8th house
Jupiter Square Saturn
Saturn Square Neptune
Saturn Opposition Moon/Asc.
Saturn Opposition Jupiter/Neptune
Saturn Opposition Uranus/N. Node
N. Node in Cancer
N. Node in 5th house
N. Node Conjunct Moon
N. Node Conjunct Pluto
N. Node Conjunct Moon/Pluto