challenges and difficulties
González both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable to others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting them get to know him intimately does not come easily to Mark, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Mark González is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for González.
He is very conscientious, responsible, and concerned with his duty, his public image and reputation, and becoming a person of stature in the world. Mark González understands the need for hard work and careful planning in order to accomplish anything substantial and he is capable of much self-discipline and patience once he sets his sights on a goal.
But Mark González is very judgmental and hard on himself if he fails to attain success, and he can become dry, bitter, or cynical if the world does not recognize his efforts.
Mark González strongly rebels against any restrictions and may have the desire to break away and overthrow any thoughts of responsibility. On the other hand, limitations in his life could suddenly wane, thereby leaving González free to do his own thing.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Mark González instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Mark González needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Mark González needs to take what he has learned (either through formal education or his own questing and life experience) and share it with others, communicate it or express it in a way that can benefit others. Knowledge and understanding, which does not enhance either Mark's quality of life or that of persons in his world, is of little real value. Putting González's understanding, philosophy, and convictions into practice in his daily relationships, and in the multiple choices he makes every day, will enable Mark González to really test his belief system and discover more about life.
When under stress, Mark González is apt to seek refuge in imagining that the grass is greener elsewhere, rather than working with what is at hand. Mark González needs to cultivate his ability to live in the present!
The arena he is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. Mark González should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials he feels he possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Mark González back, or which he is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Going to extremes, willful rebelliousness and an instinctive anti-authoritarian attitude. Mark González seeks constant (and often purposeless) movement or change, involvement with unreliable people, and individual freedom at any cost.
His relationships with others may be rather unstable and unreliable. With a somewhat negative attitude and weak will, Mark González avoids opposition and escapes his responsibilities. In his relationships he is likely to choose people who are asocial.
González is somewhat shy and tends to feel inferior when he is with others. Mark González is inclined to establish relationships with weak or sick people and is always willing to help or take care of them.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 10th house
Saturn Conjunct Uranus/MC
N. Node in Gemini
N. Node in 5th house
N. Node Opposition Uranus
N. Node Opposition Mars/Neptune
N. Node Opposition Saturn/Neptune