challenges and difficulties
MarX has a critical, cynical attitude towards many religions and philosophies. Without realizing it, she prevents herself from appreciating new viewpoints and attitudes. MarX is more rigid and dogmatic than she realizes. Her approach may also be too intellectual or moralistic. MarX takes her own political beliefs and spiritual philosophy very seriously, worrying and fretting if she is not 100% clear about some ideology or theory.
MarX has a mature, disciplined, serious attitude toward life that colors everything she does. Caution and realism are her virtues though MarX limits herself at times by being too careful, shy or fearful, not believing in herself enough, or lacking the required assertiveness. Others find MarX difficult to get to know intimately, as MarX tends to distance herself from them or to outwardly adopt a rather stern, "adult" demeanor.
MarX may find it difficult to relate to people and express her feelings, especially in love relationships. On the hand, MarX wants relationships yet on the other, she would rather be by herself. A sense of personal inadequacy makes MarX withdraw from others and feel lonely as a result.
MarX tends to have a pessimistic outlook and she seems to be plagued by deep inner conflicts, which could severely undermine her strength. Self-critical and uncertain about her goals, MarX feels that she cannot live up to her ideals and ends up disappointed.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which MarX instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction MarX needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Seeking harmonious interpersonal relationships, cooperation, and togetherness, as well as the desire to please or appease other people, are drives that come very naturally to MarX - so much so that she seeks them out at her own expense. When she is under stress, MarX tends to look outside herself for approval or answers, and she leans on others too much. Therefore, developing self-reliance, and the courage to look inwardly for answers and forge her own path through life is a key factor in her self-development.
MarX is often tempted to be less than completely straightforward about her intentions or desires, and she can become enmeshed in a quagmire of "little white lies". Stark honesty - both inward and toward others - is the only way out! This, however, leads to the need to confront some of MarX's most deeply ingrained fears, such as "what if they do not like me?" and "what if I have to go through this alone?".
MarX needs to cultivate her ability to be assertive, take initiative and act on her own behalf. Directness and self-reliance are imperative.
The arena she is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. MarX should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials she feels she possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
The specific habits which are likely to hold MarX back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
The tendency for self-indulgence, laziness, and over-reliance on the generosity or affection of others, as well as making love relationships, social life and superficial pleasures more important than anything else in her life.
MarX seems to be a loner, rather serious and quiet. Perhaps she is burdened by family conditions that weigh her down. MarX prefers to associate with older or more authoritative people and is happier in a subordinate position.
She may have the feeling that she constantly has to surrender to the wishes of other people and she gives the impression of having a passive or indifferent role in her relationships. MarX never takes the initiative and depends on the support of groups she is affiliated with.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Sagittarius
Saturn in 1st house
Saturn Conjunct Venus/Mars
Saturn Conjunct Neptune/Pluto
N. Node in Aries
N. Node in 5th house
N. Node Opposition Venus
N. Node Opposition Sun/Saturn
N. Node Opposition Moon/Neptune