challenges and difficulties
Lorraine McIntosh often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something she cannot name or specify, and she may sense both a great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or over sensitivity is an important task for McIntosh.
McIntosh is generally not a "joiner" and she does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Lorraine McIntosh does participate in a group, she may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or she may simply feel that she does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Lorraine McIntosh better than being with groups of her own peers.
Lorraine McIntosh seesaws between playing it safe, and doing something unique and original, between self-control and letting loose, between being a responsible adult and a rebellious adolescent, between what Lorraine has to or should do and what her spontaneous impulses tell her to do. All of this creates enormous inner tension as well as friction with people in her environment. Lorraine McIntosh may, for instance, bitterly resent government or authority figures who "crush her individuality", yet ignore her obligations and responsibilities, thus ensuring that they will pursue her. Learning to give each side its due is an ongoing challenge for McIntosh.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Lorraine McIntosh instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Lorraine McIntosh needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
When under stress, Lorraine McIntosh is apt to shut off the flow of her emotions and ignore her needs and feelings in order to do what she perceives as her duty or simply what the practical realities of the situation dictate. This can lead to a certain rigidity and inflexibility. If overdone, self-control, self-discipline, or an exaggerated concern over what society, family or others expect of her, makes life more of a burden than an adventure.
Fostering her tender, caring, feminine, and nurturing aspects is an important step in Lorraine McIntosh's growth. Lorraine McIntosh needs to learn how to nourish and lovingly tend to both herself and others. Letting herself be taken care of sometimes is okay!
It is in her dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Lorraine McIntosh needs to integrate in tangible ways: how she makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what she does with the resources she has. Lorraine McIntosh should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
The following are specific activities that will support Lorraine McIntosh in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to McIntosh, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
She needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Lorraine McIntosh has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. She needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Lorraine McIntosh has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating her ability to love and to receive love.
McIntosh cooperates well with others and has the ability to give and receive stimulating suggestions. Lorraine McIntosh is always receptive to new ideas and ready for spontaneous group efforts. She seems to have instant recall and is likely to act just as quickly.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 11th house
Saturn Opposition Uranus
N. Node in Cancer
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Conjunct Venus
N. Node Conjunct Mercury/Uranus