challenges and difficulties
Mathers fears of becoming emotionally dependent upon others, and may distance herself or deny her needs for relationships of closeness and intimacy so that she will not be vulnerable to rejection or abandonment. On the other hand, Kim Mathers may cling excessively or need constant reassurance from loved ones and family. Developing a deep, inner sense of security, as well as the ability to give and receive nurturing are important tasks for Kim.
Her childhood or her relationships with her parents was restrictive, unloving, or unhappy in ways that may prevent Kim from allowing other people to get close to her in later life. Kim Mathers felt deprived in some manner, whether or not she actually was deprived in some way. Emotional separations or repression of her needs and feelings may typify her early life, at least as Mathers remembers it. Forgiving her parents and/or letting go of any resentments she has about the limitations that she experienced early in her life is crucial. Also, Kim Mathers needs to build her own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into her home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help Kim accomplish this.
Her outlook on life is inclined to be somewhat negative and Kim Mathers tries to avoid relationships and social interaction as much as possible. There is a morose side to Kim's nature that makes her feel that no one cares about her, that life is difficult and perhaps not even worthwhile.
Kim Mathers may often be coerced into doing things that she does not want to do, leaving her frustrated, irritable and touchy. Kim could turn hard and unforgiving toward others and may break up some important relationships.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Kim Mathers instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Kim Mathers needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
It is easy for Kim Mathers to become distracted from her path by the multitude of interesting choices, possibilities, and options available to her. Kim Mathers needs to develop single mindedness and focus. Until Kim directs her attention to some of the big questions, such as "What is my life's purpose?" "What is really important to me and essential to my happiness?", she is apt to dabble, scatter her energies in many directions and engage in activities which are entertaining but ultimately neither fruitful nor enriching.
Having an overall vision for her life and aligning her daily activities so that they support rather than detract from Mathers' larger purpose in life, is a significant step toward her personal development.
It is in relationships that are more than superficial or casual - in particular in cases where Kim Mathers has merged emotionally, legally, or financially with another person - that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Mathers will see these issues arise in close partnerships of any kind, especially when there is a mutual dependency involved. Dealing with in-laws, inheritances, and legal matters involving joint custody, shared assets, and resources is also a part of this.
The following are specific activities that will support Kim Mathers in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Mathers, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Kim Mathers should become more aware of the spiritual side of life and its underlying unity by getting involved in charitable activities and opening up her psychic channels. Meditation that develops Mathers' intuitive abilities, as well as learning about the unseen side of life through her own dream experiences or altered states of awareness, can be important steps in Kim's path.
Moreover, musical and artistic or imaginative endeavors will be important to her.
She is somewhat restless and nervous, but enjoys communicating with people and is constantly confronting others with her new ideas. Kim has the ability to develop new relationships quickly and she can also be a stimulating force in group activities.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Cancer
Saturn in 4th house
Saturn Opposition Sun/MC
Saturn Conjunct Pluto/Asc.
N. Node in Sagittarius
N. Node in 8th house
N. Node Conjunct Neptune
N. Node Conjunct Sun/Uranus