challenges and difficulties
She is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing herself freely and openly is not easy for Darby. Kim Darby tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of her "performance" is an important task for Kim.
Kim may be plagued by fear of the unknown, of change, and/or of death. She strongly resists changes and transitions rather than greeting them with curiosity or a spirit of adventure, which makes them much harder for her.
On another level entirely, Kim Darby is very careful about joining forces, and especially her material resources, with others. Darby wants to keep her own and other people's property and assets very distinct.
She is suspicious of groups, crowds, and social organizations. Darby is quick to pick up on social charades and insincerity and avoids the limelight and glamour. Kim Darby is direct and to the point in speech and manner, stubborn and inflexible, and often unwilling to communicate her innermost feelings and thoughts.
Kim Darby tends to be somewhat gloomy and may feel that life is difficult and that her will is blocked in some way. Kim may find it hard to make decisions and to concentrate on her goals, which she may consider unworthy.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Kim Darby instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Kim Darby needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Kim Darby needs to take what she has learned (either through formal education or her own questing and life experience) and share it with others, communicate it or express it in a way that can benefit others. Knowledge and understanding, which does not enhance either Kim's quality of life or that of persons in her world, is of little real value. Putting Darby's understanding, philosophy, and convictions into practice in her daily relationships, and in the multiple choices she makes every day, will enable Kim Darby to really test her belief system and discover more about life.
When under stress, Kim Darby is apt to seek refuge in imagining that the grass is greener elsewhere, rather than working with what is at hand. Kim Darby needs to cultivate her ability to live in the present!
The arena she is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. Kim Darby should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials she feels she possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
The following are specific activities that will support Kim Darby in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Darby, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Kim Darby should become a warrior and cultivate a positive, victorious, active approach to life and to any problems she faces. It is in Darby's best interest to act on her own behalf instead of stalling, waiting or hoping someone else will do it for her. Kim Darby needs to assert herself openly and courageously and not to be afraid to make mistakes or stumble; there are bound to be a few trial runs to any new initiative. Kim needs to foster a healthy fighting spirit, pick herself up, and go! She also should learn to appreciate conflict and confrontation as a means to grow.
She is highly emotional and tends to display her feelings in a theatrical way. Kim Darby seems to enjoy being somewhat eccentric and finds it difficult to adapt herself to others. Although she may seek emotional fulfillment, Kim does not do well in relationships and teamwork surroundings.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 8th house
Saturn Conjunct Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Mars/MC
N. Node in Gemini
N. Node in 5th house
N. Node Conjunct Mars
N. Node Conjunct Moon/Pluto