challenges and difficulties
He is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing himself freely and openly is not easy for Tillman. Kevin Tillman tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of his "performance" is an important task for Kevin.
It may be difficult for Kevin Tillman to play spontaneously or just let his hair down, for he tends to inhibit that side of his by being too self-conscious and concerned with the impression he is making.
Kevin may work very hard at some sport or creative medium in order to excel, for he wants very, very much to be noticed, acknowledged and recognized as special in some way. Though he may indeed be outstanding, Kevin Tillman also needs to learn to relax and enjoy himself more.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Kevin Tillman instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Kevin Tillman needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Instinctively he is a fighter and an individualist who can stand alone when necessary. Very often, however, Kevin stands alone when he does not need to, not realizing the support, assistance, and resources others may have to offer. Kevin Tillman has a tendency to "reinvent the wheel" and to feel that he must be self-reliant and that only he can come up with the answers he needs. Implicit in this attitude is a kind of arrogance as well as a rather competitive approach, which - at its worst - can alienate him from others, or make Kevin Tillman feel that "it is me against the world".
Social skills and graces and what Kevin Tillman calls social "games" do not come naturally to him. Kevin Tillman needs to learn how to share and join others, and how to negotiate and resolve conflict with others in a cooperative way.
It is in his work and his relationships with co-workers, employers, and employees that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Integrating the qualities described above into Tillman's work and daily routine will lead to greater satisfaction, improved health, and personal growth.
His relationships with others may be rather unstable and unreliable. With a somewhat negative attitude and weak will, Kevin Tillman avoids opposition and escapes his responsibilities. In his relationships he is likely to choose people who are asocial.
Kevin Tillman tends to have a certain fear of crowds and may find it hard to integrate himself into a group of people. Working with others is not easy for Tillman, and he may frequently encounter upsets or hostility.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 5th house
N. Node in Libra
N. Node in 6th house
N. Node Conjunct Mars/Neptune
N. Node Conjunct Saturn/Uranus