challenges and difficulties
Holmes fears of becoming emotionally dependent upon others, and may distance himself or deny his needs for relationships of closeness and intimacy so that he will not be vulnerable to rejection or abandonment. On the other hand, John Holmes may cling excessively or need constant reassurance from loved ones and family. Developing a deep, inner sense of security, as well as the ability to give and receive nurturing are important tasks for John.
His childhood or his relationships with his parents was restrictive, unloving, or unhappy in ways that may prevent John from allowing other people to get close to him in later life. John Holmes felt deprived in some manner, whether or not he actually was deprived in some way. Emotional separations or repression of his needs and feelings may typify his early life, at least as Holmes remembers it. Forgiving his parents and/or letting go of any resentments he has about the limitations that he experienced early in his life is crucial. Also, John Holmes needs to build his own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into his home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help John accomplish this.
John Holmes strives and struggles a great deal with his ideals or spiritual aspirations. He may go through periods of self-denial, asceticism, and in-depth study of religious philosophy and spiritual practices, or he may lose heart and become cynical about religious ideals; however, he can never quite divorce himself from his idealistic concerns.
When he is with others, John Holmes often may suddenly become inhibited. He is inclined to be afraid of confrontations and probably will avoid group activities as much as possible.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which John Holmes instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction John Holmes needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
When under stress, John Holmes is apt to shut off the flow of his emotions and ignore his needs and feelings in order to do what he perceives as his duty or simply what the practical realities of the situation dictate. This can lead to a certain rigidity and inflexibility. If overdone, self-control, self-discipline, or an exaggerated concern over what society, family or others expect of him, makes life more of a burden than an adventure.
Fostering his tender, caring, feminine, and nurturing aspects is an important step in John Holmes' growth. John Holmes needs to learn how to nourish and lovingly tend to both himself and others. Letting himself be taken care of sometimes is okay!
The arena he is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. John Holmes should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials he feels he possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
John Holmes seems to be a loner, rather serious and quiet. Perhaps he is burdened by family conditions that weigh him down. John prefers to associate with older or more authoritative people and is happier in a subordinate position.
Holmes co-operate well with others and has the ability to give and receive stimulating suggestions. John Holmes is always receptive to new ideas and ready for spontaneous group efforts. He seems to have an instant recall of things and is likely to act just as quickly.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Cancer
Saturn in 4th house
Saturn Square Neptune
Saturn Conjunct Uranus/N. Node
N. Node in Cancer
N. Node in 5th house
N. Node Conjunct Sun/Saturn
N. Node Conjunct Mercury/Uranus