challenges and difficulties
Bayley both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable with others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting himself be known in a deep way does not come easily to John, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. John Bayley is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Bayley.
It may be difficult for John Bayley to play spontaneously or just let his hair down, for he tends to inhibit that side of his by being too self-conscious and concerned with the impression he is making.
John may work very hard at some sport or creative medium in order to excel, for he wants very, very much to be noticed, acknowledged, and recognized as special in some way. Though he may indeed be outstanding, John Bayley also needs to learn to relax and enjoy himself more.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which John Bayley instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction John Bayley needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
John Bayley's path lies in his development as an individual, the discovery of his own strengths and joys, the capacity to express his uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Bayley's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress John Bayley is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, he may believe that striving to do his personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but John should let go of this notion. Finding his own center and doing what gives him delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution John Bayley can offer the world at large.
It is in his dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones John Bayley needs to integrate in tangible ways: how he makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what he does with the resources he has. John Bayley should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 5th house
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 2nd house