challenges and difficulties
John Leslie often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something he cannot name or specify, and he may sense both a great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or over sensitivity is an important task for Leslie.
His childhood or his relationship with his parents was restrictive, unloving or unhappy in ways that may prevent John from allowing other people to get close to him in later life. John Leslie feels that he was deprived in one form or another, regardless of whether he actually was or not. His early life - at least as Leslie remembers it - may have been marked by emotional separation or repression of his needs and feelings. Forgiving his parents and/or letting go of any resentments he has about the limitations that he experienced early in his life is crucial. Also, John Leslie needs to build his own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into his home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help John accomplish this task.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which John Leslie instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction John Leslie needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
John Leslie needs to take what he has learned (either through formal education or his own questing and life experience) and share it with others, communicate it or express it in a way that can benefit others. Knowledge and understanding, which does not enhance either John's quality of life or that of persons in his world, is of little real value. Putting Leslie's understanding, philosophy, and convictions into practice in his daily relationships, and in the multiple choices he makes every day, will enable John Leslie to really test his belief system and discover more about life.
When under stress, John Leslie is apt to seek refuge in imagining that the grass is greener elsewhere, rather than working with what is at hand. John Leslie needs to cultivate his ability to live in the present!
It is in relationships that are more than superficial or casual - in particular in cases where John Leslie has merged emotionally, legally, or financially with another person - that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Leslie will see these issues arise in close partnerships of any kind, especially when there is a mutual dependency involved. Dealing with in-laws, inheritances, and legal matters involving joint custody, shared assets, and resources is also a part of this.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 4th house
N. Node in Gemini
N. Node in 8th house