challenges and difficulties
Illeana Douglas often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something she cannot name or specify, and she may have both: great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or oversensitivity is an important task for Douglas.
It may be difficult for Illeana Douglas to play spontaneously or just let her hair down, for she tends to inhibit that side of her by being too self-conscious and concerned with the impression she is making.
Illeana may work very hard at some sport or creative medium in order to excel, for she wants very, very much to be noticed, acknowledged, and recognized as special in some way. Though she may indeed be outstanding, Illeana Douglas also needs to learn to relax and enjoy herself more.
Illeana has an inner conflict between idealism, hope, and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression by limitations and practical realities. Illeana Douglas needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve her aspirations. Douglas will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Illeana Douglas seesaws between playing it safe, and doing something unique and original, between self-control and letting loose, between being a responsible adult and a rebellious adolescent, between what Illeana has to or should do and what her spontaneous impulses tell her to do. All of this creates enormous inner tension as well as friction with people in her environment. Illeana Douglas may, for instance, bitterly resent government or authority figures who "crush her individuality", yet ignore her obligations and responsibilities, thus ensuring that they will pursue her. Learning to give each side its due is an ongoing challenge for Douglas.
Illeana Douglas feels that she must work very hard and struggle against tremendous odds that impede her chances of fulfilling her life's ambitions. Illeana may adopt a very hard, cynical, or nihilistic attitude that will only drag her down further. There are major problems with her father or figures of authority. Illeana Douglas may fail simply to spite "them", without realizing that she is primarily hurting herself. If she can overcome her feelings of loneliness, bitterness or isolation, and direct her energies toward constructive endeavors, Douglas can be immensely effective because of her tremendous tenacity and potential for achievement.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Illeana Douglas instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Illeana Douglas needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Illeana Douglas needs to take what she has learned (either through formal education or her own questing and life experience) and share it with others, communicate it or express it in a way that can benefit others. Knowledge and understanding, which does not enhance either Illeana's quality of life or that of persons in her world, is of little real value. Putting Douglas' understanding, philosophy, and convictions into practice in her daily relationships, and in the multiple choices she makes every day, will enable Illeana Douglas to really test her belief system and discover more about life.
When under stress, Illeana Douglas is apt to seek refuge in imagining that the grass is greener elsewhere, rather than working with what is at hand. Illeana Douglas needs to cultivate her ability to live in the present!
It is in relationships that are more than superficial or casual - in particular in cases where Illeana Douglas has merged emotionally, legally, or financially with another person - that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Douglas will see these issues arise in close partnerships of any kind, especially when there is a mutual dependency involved. Dealing with in-laws, inheritances, and legal matters involving joint custody, shared assets, and resources is also a part of this.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 5th house
Jupiter Square Saturn
Saturn Opposition Uranus
Saturn Opposition Pluto
N. Node in Gemini
N. Node in 8th house