challenges and difficulties
She is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing herself freely and openly is not easy for O'Rourke. Heather O'Rourke tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of her "performance" is an important task for Heather.
Her childhood or her relationship with her parents was restrictive, unloving or unhappy in ways that may prevent Heather from allowing other people to get close to her in later life. Heather O'Rourke feels that she was deprived in one form or another, regardless of whether she actually was or not. Her early life - at least as O'Rourke remembers it - may have been marked by emotional separation or repression of her needs and feelings. Forgiving her parents and/or letting go of any resentments she has about the limitations that she experienced early in her life is crucial. Also, Heather O'Rourke needs to build her own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into her home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help Heather accomplish this task.
Heather O'Rourke becomes tense and upset rather easily. She becomes irritated by the unwillingness of others to make changes. In her eagerness to see her inspirations materialize, O'Rourke is inclined to forego tact and diplomacy in favor of achieving her goals. Her occasional outbreaks of brusque, insensitive behavior often do more harm than good.
She is inclined to be rather serious and withdrawn. As she feels very uncomfortable in the presence of others, Heather O'Rourke shies away from social contacts and prefers to be by herself.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Heather O'Rourke instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Heather O'Rourke needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
She is capable of withstanding outside influences and remaining constant and steady on her path, but when under stress Heather O'Rourke becomes downright obstinate and implacable, resisting any change no matter how necessary or desirable the change may be. Tenaciously trying to preserve the status quo and hold on to what she has, she is apt to ignore the subtle signals she receives about needing to do something differently, which often leads to a crisis.
Heather O'Rourke needs to learn the limits of her ability to control life, and to accept and even embrace change and loss of the familiar, in order to allow for new life and growth. "Letting go" is a major life lesson for her. O'Rourke also needs to develop a balanced attitude toward her appetites and desires, as Heather O'Rourke tends to overindulge and/or deny herself excessively.
It is in relationships that are more than superficial or casual - in particular in cases where Heather O'Rourke has merged emotionally, legally, or financially with another person - that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. O'Rourke will see these issues arise in close partnerships of any kind, especially when there is a mutual dependency involved. Dealing with in-laws, inheritances, and legal matters involving joint custody, shared assets, and resources is also a part of this.
The following are specific activities that will support Heather O'Rourke in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to O'Rourke, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
She needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Heather O'Rourke has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. She needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Heather O'Rourke has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating her ability to love and to receive love.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 4th house
Saturn Square Uranus
Saturn Opposition N. Node/Asc.
N. Node in Scorpio
N. Node in 8th house
N. Node Conjunct Venus