challenges and difficulties
He is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing himself freely and openly is not easy for Ellis. Havelock Ellis tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of his "performance" is an important task for Havelock.
Havelock Ellis takes both his work and his health very seriously, but he may demand so much of his at work that he compromise his health. Havelock can become a workaholic, not so much because he has lofty ambitions, but because he never feels like he has done enough. Havelock Ellis is overly responsible or overly conscientious at work, so much so that he may not enjoy it at all.
Ellis can also get overly involved in self-improvement or his health, and he tends to be a bit of a hypochondriac.
Once he decides what he wants to do, Havelock Ellis will pursue his goal tenaciously and, if necessary, sacrifice a great deal for his deeply felt convictions. This trait tends to make Havelock feel a little out of step with others. Havelock Ellis takes things a little more seriously and has an inclination to be somewhat of a fanatic, although probably not flamboyantly so; as a result, others may not be aware of how deeply Havelock feels and how driven he is about the things that are important to him. Havelock Ellis has a deep inner resolve and is willing to struggle to do the things that are really meaningful to him, rather than follow an easier but less meaningful course in life.
Havelock could find it difficult to express himself and consequently he feels inhibited and lonely at times. He tends to isolate himself from others and his relationships seem strained. Conditions in Havelock Ellis' parental home may be oppressive and constrained.
He is inclined to be somewhat withdrawn and has a hard time discussing important matters with his family and close relationships. A serious and deep thinker, Havelock Ellis would like to explain his views to others, but has a difficult time finding the right words.
Havelock Ellis tends to be somewhat gloomy and may feel that life is difficult and that his will is blocked in some way. Havelock could find it hard to make decisions and to concentrate on his goals and may consider them not worthwhile.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Havelock Ellis instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Havelock Ellis needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Havelock Ellis' path lies in cultivating idealism and humanitarian feelings, being concerned with how Ellis' actions impact the world at large, perhaps becoming more aware of the social implications of Ellis' life style and personal choices or becoming active politically. Participating in organizations that support Ellis' ideals is one way to do this.
When under stress he is likely to become overly focused on himself and his own little world.
Instead of "how will this benefit or hurt me?" Ellis' focus needs to shift to "how will this affect us all?".
Ideally, Havelock Ellis needs to strike a balance between doing for himself and doing for others, by discovering how Ellis' unique gifts can benefit others.
It is in his relationships with others that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Havelock Ellis between acting spontaneously and being true to himself versus modifying himself or his behavior to suit others. Havelock Ellis seesaws between being inordinately concerned with his self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about him. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Ellis' task.
He may have the feeling that he constantly has to surrender to the wishes of other people and he gives the impression of having a passive or indifferent role in his relationships. Havelock Ellis never takes the initiative and depends on the support of groups he is affiliated with.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 6th house
Saturn Square Pluto
Saturn Opposition Sun/Moon
Saturn Opposition Mercury/Asc.
Saturn Opposition Mars/MC
N. Node in Aquarius
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Moon/Neptune