challenges and difficulties
Webb both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable with others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting himself be known in a deep way does not come easily to Gary, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Gary Webb is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Webb.
Webb is generally not a "joiner" and he does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Gary Webb does participate in a group, he may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or he may simply feel that he does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Gary Webb better than being with groups of his own peers.
Gary has an inner conflict between idealism, hope, and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression by limitations and practical realities. Gary Webb needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve his aspirations. Webb will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Gary Webb instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Gary Webb needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
It is easy for Gary Webb to become distracted from his path by the multitude of interesting choices, possibilities, and options available to him. Gary Webb needs to develop single mindedness and focus. Until Gary directs his attention to some of the big questions, such as "What is my life's purpose?" "What is really important to me and essential to my happiness?", he is apt to dabble, scatter his energies in many directions and engage in activities which are entertaining but ultimately neither fruitful nor enriching.
Having an overall vision for his life and aligning his daily activities so that they support rather than detract from Webb's larger purpose in life, is a significant step toward his personal development.
It is deep within himself, as Gary Webb faces his own demons, fears, and struggles - those aspects of life that are not easily or readily shared, those parts of his life that Gary Webb keeps hidden from public view where he is most likely to wrestle with these issues.
The qualities described above can also be beneficially channeled into some sort of charitable work, altruistic service or ministering to people in need.
He may have the feeling that he constantly has to surrender to the wishes of other people and he gives the impression of having a passive or indifferent role in his relationships. Gary Webb never takes the initiative and depends on the support of groups he is affiliated with.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 11th house
Jupiter Square Saturn
N. Node in Sagittarius
N. Node in 12th house
N. Node Conjunct Moon/Neptune