challenges and difficulties
Esther Williams has a penchant for order and precision, and an almost compulsive attention to detail. She is often hypercritical and can be such a demanding perfectionist that she discourages herself or others from even attempting something that will not be done exactly the way Williams knows it should be done.
She frequently over analyzes or picks things apart mentally. Esther Williams may also be somewhat of a hypochondriac. Esther must learn that she does not have to rationally understand everything in order for it to be valid, and also to relax her unnecessarily high or strict standards.
She may have vague but ever-present feelings of guilt and fear that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Esther Williams does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Esther Williams must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Her aspirations and dreams are always tempered by realism and practical considerations. Esther Williams pursues her aims in a systematic, disciplined and thorough manner, and she is willing to take her time, advancing slowly and steadily toward her goal.
Sometimes Esther Williams underestimates what is possible, and holds herself back unnecessarily due to a lack of faith or an overly cautious attitude.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Esther Williams instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Esther Williams needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Instinctively she is a fighter and an individualist who can stand alone when necessary. Very often, however, Esther stands alone when she does not need to, not realizing the support, assistance, and resources others may have to offer. Esther Williams has a tendency to "reinvent the wheel" and to feel that she must be self-reliant and that only she can come up with the answers she needs. Implicit in this attitude is a kind of arrogance as well as a rather competitive approach, which - at its worst - can alienate her from others, or make Esther Williams feel that "it is me against the world".
Social skills and graces and what Esther Williams calls social "games" do not come naturally to her. Esther Williams needs to learn how to share and join others, and how to negotiate and resolve conflict with others in a cooperative way.
It is in her relationships with others that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Esther Williams between acting spontaneously and being true to herself versus modifying herself or her behavior to suit others. Esther Williams seesaws between being inordinately concerned with her self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about her. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Williams' task.
The following are specific activities that will support Esther Williams in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Williams, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Esther Williams should care for and nourish children, plants, pets or other people. She needs to make a home, create and sustain strong relationships with her family or a community that can support her and give her a sense of safety and belonging.
Esther Williams should develop her listening skills and deepen her understanding and appreciation of women and their perspective. Esther Williams has to learn to trust her own feelings, intuitions and emotional needs. She needs to care for herself in an accepting, non-judgmental way.
It is in Esther Williams' best interest to take all that is good and helpful from her past and use it in a new way. (If she is so inclined, Esther may want to explore the potential of past-life regression to tap into gifts she has already developed).
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Virgo
Saturn in 12th house
Jupiter Conjunct Saturn
N. Node in Libra
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Moon