challenges and difficulties
Estelle Lefébure often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something she cannot name or specify, and she may sense both a great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or over sensitivity is an important task for Lefébure.
Her childhood or her relationship with her parents was restrictive, unloving or unhappy in ways that may prevent Estelle from allowing other people to get close to her in later life. Estelle Lefébure feels that she was deprived in one form or another, regardless of whether she actually was or not. Her early life - at least as Lefébure remembers it - may have been marked by emotional separation or repression of her needs and feelings. Forgiving her parents and/or letting go of any resentments she has about the limitations that she experienced early in her life is crucial. Also, Estelle Lefébure needs to build her own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into her home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help Estelle accomplish this task.
Estelle has an inner conflict between idealism, hope and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression due to limitations and practical realities. Estelle Lefébure needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve her aspirations. Lefébure will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Estelle Lefébure instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Estelle Lefébure needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Estelle Lefébure benefits by becoming more aware of the rhythm of the seasons and the natural world, learning to slow down and allow life to unfold in its own time. Nurturing a garden, a child, or some other living, growing thing gives Estelle Lefébure a sense of inner balance.
Estelle Lefébure has a tendency to be deeply suspicious, to not take anything at face value and to see hidden agendas and dark motives even where none exist! Life does not have to be a constant conflict... Estelle needs to learn to accept things as they are.
Lefébure also needs to develop patience, peace and stability by grounding herself in her daily work and behaving consistently and reliably towards others.
It is in her marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. She may see the qualities that she needs to develop more fully (described above) in her partner. It is important for Estelle Lefébure to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in her life who express such attributes, as well as to develop them herself. Estelle Lefébure has to put energy and attention into learning about others, and about herself through others.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Estelle Lefébure back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Escapism through fantasy, intoxicants, or passive, vicarious activities (television, movies, etc.), waiting for a miracle instead of taking constructive steps to help herself, aimlessness or an inability to make and keep commitments, and self deception regarding other people. Estelle has a tendency to be a martyr.
The following are specific activities that will support Estelle Lefébure in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Lefébure, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Estelle Lefébure should develop true self-confidence and the willingness to put herself "out there", be seen and shine. Estelle needs to be willing to take on a leading role. She needs to be a hero - a protagonist in her own story - by cultivating the courageous, active, and positive masculine qualities she possesses. Doing creative work that she is proud of - anything that comes from Lefébure's heart and bears the stamp of Lefébure's individuality - is important. Also, being a mentor, a helpful, encouraging force in the life of someone less experienced than she is a way for Estelle Lefébure to grow and become more whole herself.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 4th house
Jupiter Square Saturn
N. Node in Taurus
N. Node in 7th house
N. Node Opposition Neptune
N. Node Conjunct Sun