challenges and difficulties
Esai has an innate distrust of groups and/or a cynical attitude toward society that may leave him feeling out of step and unable to participate in activities with his peers. Overcoming a sense of aloofness and alienation from others is an important task for Morales.
Morales is generally not a "joiner" and he does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Esai Morales does participate in a group, he may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or he may simply feel that he does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Esai Morales better than being with groups of his own peers.
The side of Esai Morales that wants and needs structure, order, stability, and a disciplined way of life is at odds with his urges for unfettered freedom, change, excitement, and discovery. There is apt to be much discontent, inner stress, and tension as a result, and at times Esai finds it hard to relax. Esai Morales may act out in a rebellious way now and then, or clamp down hard on himself, in an attempt to strictly control his "wild" impulses. Morales' task is to try to find a reasonable balance between order and creative chaos in his life.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Esai Morales instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Esai Morales needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Esai Morales' path lies in his development as an individual, the discovery of his own strengths and joys, the capacity to express his uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Morales' instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Esai Morales is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, he may believe that striving to do his personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Esai should let go of this notion. Finding his own center and doing what gives him delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Esai Morales can offer the world at large.
The arena he is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. Esai Morales should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials he feels he possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Esai Morales back, or which he is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Esai Morales' rigid self-control overly restricts his ability to freely express himself or explore possibilities. He is excessively concerned with work, duty and security. He tends to be fearful, judgmental towards himself or others, and can feel alone and cut off from sources of nourishment outside himself. Esai Morales should try to learn to relax and recognize that not everything is Morales' responsibility.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Aquarius
Saturn in 11th house
Saturn Quincunx Uranus
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 5th house
N. Node Opposition Saturn