challenges and difficulties
Pagels doubts her own intelligence and mental capacities, and she may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Elaine is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for her.
Her attitude toward religion, philosophy, and politics is very conservative and possibly narrow or rigid. On the one hand, Elaine Pagels may believe in nothing that is speculative or intangible, requiring proof for any idea presented to her. Each idea is thoroughly and systematically examined. On the other hand, Elaine may tenaciously cling to her grand philosophical or metaphysical beliefs and opinions, refusing to modify them or to be open and receptive to others' insights and perspectives.
Her overall outlook on life is serious, and Elaine Pagels may feel that life or God will punish her if she does not watch her steps!
She is serious and sincere about her interests, does not accept superficial answers and is not easily placated. Elaine wants her inspirations to become reality and she does not mind upsetting a few apple carts in the process. Elaine Pagels becomes impatient with others for being hesitant to implement new ideas and take action, and her occasional outbreaks of brusque, insensitive behavior often do more harm than good.
Pagels works quietly to get ahead, but may have to work harder than others to gain recognition for her efforts. Reserved and shy, Elaine Pagels tends to build a wall between herself and others and she seems to be more receptive to older and mature people.
Around others Pagels is somewhat humble and shy and prefer to be by herself. Elaine Pagels tends to limit her relationships with others and associates only with like-minded people. She is inclined to be cool and reserved even toward those she loves.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Elaine Pagels instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Elaine Pagels needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Elaine Pagels' path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Pagels' instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Elaine Pagels is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Elaine should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Elaine Pagels can offer the world at large.
It is deep within herself, as Elaine Pagels faces her own demons, fears, and struggles - those aspects of life that are not easily or readily shared, those parts of her life that Elaine Pagels keeps hidden from public view where she is most likely to wrestle with these issues.
The qualities described above can also be beneficially channeled into some sort of charitable work, altruistic service or ministering to people in need.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Elaine Pagels back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Being excessively egocentric or proud, needing personal recognition and applause, wanting to be center stage all the time, needing to be important and special.
Elaine Pagels tends to be a bit too idealistic and may place too much hope on her relationships, resulting in frequent disappointments. Elaine could be attracted to naive people, but some of her contacts also may turn out to be swindlers.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 9th house
Saturn Conjunct Uranus
Saturn Opposition Sun/Asc.
Saturn Conjunct Venus/N. Node
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 12th house
N. Node Opposition Sun
N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/Neptune