Although West may seem quite poised, even-tempered, balanced and harmonious (as mentioned in the previous chapter), she is actually rather moody and emotional. Inside, she is much more subjective and biased in her attitudes than her fair-minded, reasonable demeanor may imply.
Donda has powerful emotional attachments to the past, her family, her childhood, places she associates with safety and security, and her beginnings. It is very important to West to maintain a connection with her roots and heritage and keep family bonds strong. Loyal, devoted, and sentimental, West tends to cling to whatever is dear to her - be it a person, a familiar place, or a cherished possession.
She is sympathetic, nurturing, supportive and very sensitive to the emotional needs of other people. Donda likes to be needed and to care for others, and she often worries about the people she loves. Donda West has a very strong need for a sense of belonging and acceptance, and much of her life centers on her home. She is more concerned about people and their feelings than with power, achievement, or position in society. Kindness, consideration and tenderness are more meaningful to Donda West than any sort of honor the world can bestow.
She is primarily emotional and her views are often dominated by her feelings and her own personal, subjective experiences, rather than reason, logic or abstract principles. It is difficult for her to judge situations fairly and objectively because her personal sympathies and loyalties usually factor in. Donda West takes things very personally and sometimes builds a wall around herself to shield herself from pain and rejection. Donda West feels rather shy and vulnerable at heart. She also tends to be moody and experiences frequent mood swings. Donda West needs to have a place and time in her life to withdraw, introspect, dream and replenish herself; otherwise Donda West becomes cranky and unhappy with those around her.
Donda West functions in an instinctive, irrational manner and likes to immerse herself in creative activities where she can express her feelings, imagination and instincts. West often loves to cook, since it can be both creative and a way to nurture and nourish others. Donda West also has a great affinity for music, because it evokes and communicates feelings that may be difficult or impossible to put into words.
Her compassion, sensitivity, and imagination are West's strong points. Her faults include an inability to let go of the past and move forward, clannishness and prejudice, and a tendency for self-pity when facing hardship.
Her career, reputation and public image are very important to West. Donda West has a strong desire to be influential or make her mark on the world. She is not satisfied with the personal sphere alone; her ambitions include making a major contribution and receiving broad recognition for her unique effort and gifts. Donda West may undervalue the personal or inner facet of life.
There is an ongoing, subtle conflict within Donda West between her conscious attitudes and aspirations and her deeper emotional and subconscious beliefs, needs and feelings. This creates considerable inner stress and sometimes paralyzing indecision, mostly due to the fact that Donda may be trying to follow a path that is at odds with her subconscious desires. Chronic tightness or tension in her body may well be a signal that Donda West is denying or suppressing the messages from her subconscious or emotional self.
Ideally, Donda West will learn to accept and express these two different sides of herself. Should she fail to do so, West is likely to be drawn into many relationships with people who reflect her denied or repressed qualities and seem to make her life difficult. (Also read chapter 4 in order to get a better picture of the duality described here.)
Her vitality is very strong and she is likely to be a workaholic. If Donda West is not careful, she may work so hard that she becomes exhausted, leaving herself open to physical breakdown. Donda West also has a strong drive to win and to dominate others.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Ascendant in Libra and Sun in Cancer
Sun in Cancer
Sun in 10th house
Sun Quincunx Moon
Sun Conjunct Mars/Pluto