challenges and difficulties
Donlon both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable to others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting them get to know her intimately does not come easily to Dolores, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Dolores Donlon is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Donlon.
She may have vague but ever-present feelings of guilt and fear that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Dolores Donlon does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Dolores Donlon must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Dolores has an inner conflict between idealism, hope and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression due to limitations and practical realities. Dolores Donlon needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve her aspirations. Donlon will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Dolores Donlon strives and struggles a great deal with her ideals or spiritual aspirations. She may go through periods of self-denial, asceticism, and in-depth study of religious philosophy and spiritual practices, or she may lose heart and become cynical about religious ideals; however, she can never quite divorce herself from her idealistic concerns.
Because she lacks self-confidence, Dolores Donlon has the feeling that her luck has abandoned her. She is inclined to sit and wait for the right opportunities to come along, place too much emphasis on wishful thinking, and then get disappointed when nothing happens.
Somewhat stubborn and self-willed, Dolores Donlon persists no matter what obstacles she has to overcome. She has great endurance and strength and she forces herself to work very hard. Dolores Donlon may be somewhat one-sided in the pursuit of her objectives.
When she is with others, Dolores Donlon may often suddenly become inhibited. She is inclined to be afraid of confrontations and probably will avoid group activities as much as possible.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Dolores Donlon instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Dolores Donlon needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
When under stress, Dolores Donlon is apt to shut off the flow of her emotions and ignore her needs and feelings in order to do what she perceives as her duty or simply what the practical realities of the situation dictate. This can lead to a certain rigidity and inflexibility. If overdone, self-control, self-discipline, or an exaggerated concern over what society, family or others expect of her, makes life more of a burden than an adventure.
Fostering her tender, caring, feminine, and nurturing aspects is an important step in Dolores Donlon's growth. Dolores Donlon needs to learn how to nourish and lovingly tend to both herself and others. Letting herself be taken care of sometimes is okay!
It is in relationships that are more than superficial or casual - in particular in cases where Dolores Donlon has merged emotionally, legally, or financially with another person - that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Donlon will see these issues arise in close partnerships of any kind, especially when there is a mutual dependency involved. Dealing with in-laws, inheritances, and legal matters involving joint custody, shared assets, and resources is also a part of this.
The following are specific activities that will support Dolores Donlon in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Donlon, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Dolores Donlon's path to wholeness involves confronting her dark and hidden recesses, bringing them out into the open, and transforming herself in the process. Healing abilities develop as a result of Donlon's willingness to experience and transform deep emotions such as grief, anger, and pain. Furthermore, bringing light to the darkness and pain in the world without becoming overwhelmed by it is a significant challenge for Dolores.
Dolores has an extremely magnetic personality along with strong sexual attraction. Dolores Donlon tends to put her heart and soul into her work and may prefer to work with partners of the opposite sex.
Dolores Donlon has a strong desire to acquire a leading position in her community. Although she is very capable of assuming leadership, Dolores also has a tendency to impose her will upon others. But in spite of that, she is likely to be successful.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 12th house
Jupiter Square Saturn
Saturn Square Neptune
Saturn Conjunct Jupiter/Neptune
Saturn Opposition Uranus/Pluto
Saturn Opposition Uranus/N. Node
N. Node in Cancer
N. Node in 8th house
N. Node Conjunct Pluto
N. Node Conjunct Venus/Mars
N. Node Conjunct Mars/MC