challenges and difficulties
Holiday doubts her own intelligence and mental capacities, and she may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Billie is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for her.
It may be difficult for Billie Holiday to play spontaneously or just let her hair down, for she tends to inhibit that side of her by being too self-conscious and concerned with the impression she is making.
Billie may work very hard at some sport or creative medium in order to excel, for she wants very, very much to be noticed, acknowledged, and recognized as special in some way. Though she may indeed be outstanding, Billie Holiday also needs to learn to relax and enjoy herself more.
She is suspicious of groups, crowds, and social organizations. Holiday is quick to pick up on social charades and insincerity and avoids the limelight and glamour. Billie Holiday is direct and to the point in speech and manner, stubborn and inflexible, and often unwilling to communicate her innermost feelings and thoughts.
Billie tries to build her life on solid ground, but may find it difficult to move forward, because she always tends to look back. This could result in feelings of inferiority and periodic moods of depression.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Billie Holiday instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Billie Holiday needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Billie Holiday's path lies in cultivating idealism and humanitarian feelings, being concerned with how Holiday's actions impact the world at large, perhaps becoming more aware of the social implications of Holiday's life style and personal choices or becoming active politically. Participating in organizations that support Holiday's ideals is one way to do this.
When under stress she is likely to become overly focused on herself and her own little world.
Instead of "how will this benefit or hurt me?" Holiday's focus needs to shift to "how will this affect us all?".
Ideally, Billie Holiday needs to strike a balance between doing for herself and doing for others, by discovering how Holiday's unique gifts can benefit others.
It is in her relationships with others that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Billie Holiday between acting spontaneously and being true to herself versus modifying herself or her behavior to suit others. Billie Holiday seesaws between being inordinately concerned with her self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about her. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Holiday's task.
Her feelings are heightened when she is with others and Billie Holiday has the ability to open up to them and show her feeling without reservation. Lead by her instincts, Billie is likely to have many spontaneous relationships with other people.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 5th house
Saturn Conjunct Pluto
Saturn Opposition Asc./MC
N. Node in Aquarius
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Venus/Uranus