Bill G. Wilson challenges and difficulties
Wilson both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable with others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting himself be known in a deep way does not come easily to Bill, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Bill Wilson is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Wilson.
Bill Wilson has a mature, disciplined, serious attitude toward life which colors everything he does. Caution and realism are his virtues though Bill limits himself at times by being too careful, shy, or fearful, and not believing in himself enough or being assertive when necessary. Others find Bill Wilson difficult to get to know intimately, as Wilson tends to distance himself from them or to put forth a rather stern, "adult" face to the world.
Bill has an inner conflict between idealism, hope, and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression by limitations and practical realities. Bill Wilson needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve his aspirations. Wilson will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Bill Wilson tends to be his own worst enemy, demanding inhuman perfection of himself and harshly criticizing or persecuting himself when he does not measure up. Perhaps circumstances or relationships in his life have been extremely difficult and demanding, reinforcing Bill's belief that he must struggle alone.
He is capable of tremendous effort and of overcoming great odds and handicaps. Through these efforts Bill Wilson develops his power and inner strength. However, Bill Wilson should not make life harder than it is. He must give himself permission to let up sometimes, and to realize that he is only human.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Bill Wilson instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Bill Wilson needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Cultivating the qualities of empathy, gentleness, and compassion will help counterbalance Wilson's deeply ingrained perfectionism and critical nature. When under stress, he is apt to try to rigorously analyze and focus on what needs to be corrected or improved, and he can easily become problem-oriented and lose sight of the big picture.
Bill Wilson has to learn to relax and surrender to the flow of events without having to figure everything out all the time. He should let his feelings and intuitions flow more freely, be more flexible and fluid, use his imagination and let his dreams emerge!
The arena he is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. Bill Wilson should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials he feels he possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
Bill Wilson tends to feel inferior and his attitude in the presence of others could be a bit negative or weak. He is inclined to shy away from groups and would be a rather quiet and passive member of an organization or association.
Bill Wilson loves to show off the strength that he possesses and he has a strong desire to dominate others. Bill seems to have an exuberant craving for recognition and importance and a need to influence and lead large groups of people.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 1st house
Jupiter Square Saturn
Saturn Quincunx Pluto
N. Node in Pisces
N. Node in 5th house
N. Node Opposition Sun/Neptune
N. Node Opposition Sun/Pluto
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