challenges and difficulties
Blade doubts his own intelligence and mental capacities, and he may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Barrett is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for him.
He may have vague but ever-present feelings of guilt and fear that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Barrett Blade does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend himself from its dangers and its unknowns. Barrett Blade must learn to overcome his ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Barrett Blade has a desire to break away from tradition and to free himself from restrictive conditions. Somewhat inflexible and rigid, he may suddenly become inhibited before he sets out on his goals, which could be to Blade's detriment.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Barrett Blade instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Barrett Blade needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Barrett Blade has a great capacity for sympathy, tenderness, and caring, which is a gift that he is apt to over bestow at times. For balance, Barrett Blade needs to foster mature self-discipline, self-control, and personal responsibility.
When under stress, he has a strong instinct to retreat back to the nest, to be a child again, or to become overwhelmed with feelings and longings to be taken care of. Also, he may encourage others to depend on him emotionally (and otherwise) to an unhealthy degree. Barrett Blade needs to learn how to set limits and to turn off the flow of support when necessary.
It is in his marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. He may see the qualities that he needs to develop more fully (described above) in his partner. It is important for Barrett Blade to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in his life who express such attributes, as well as to develop them himself. Barrett Blade has to put energy and attention into learning about others, and about himself through others.
The following are specific activities that will support Barrett Blade in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Blade, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Barrett Blade should become a warrior and cultivate a positive, victorious, active approach to life and to any problems he faces. It is in Blade's best interest to act on his own behalf instead of stalling, waiting or hoping someone else will do it for him. Barrett Blade needs to assert himself openly and courageously and not to be afraid to make mistakes or stumble; there are bound to be a few trial runs to any new initiative. Barrett needs to foster a healthy fighting spirit, pick himself up, and go! He also should learn to appreciate conflict and confrontation as a means to grow.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Opposition Jupiter/Uranus
N. Node in Capricorn
N. Node in 7th house
N. Node Conjunct Mars