challenges and difficulties
Annie Besant often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something she cannot name or specify, and she may have both: great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or oversensitivity is an important task for Besant.
She may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Annie Besant does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Annie Besant must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Annie Besant tends to be somewhat gloomy and may feel that life is difficult and that her will is blocked in some way. Annie could find it hard to make decisions and to concentrate on her goals and may consider them not worthwhile.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Annie Besant instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Annie Besant needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Instinctively she is a fighter and an individualist who can stand alone when necessary. Very often, however, Annie stands alone when she does not need to, not realizing the support, assistance, and resources others may have to offer. Annie Besant has a tendency to "reinvent the wheel" and to feel that she must be self-reliant and that only she can come up with the answers she needs. Implicit in this attitude is a kind of arrogance as well as a rather competitive approach, which - at its worst - can alienate her from others, or make Annie Besant feel that "it is me against the world".
Social skills and graces and what Annie Besant calls social "games" do not come naturally to her. Annie Besant needs to learn how to share and join others, and how to negotiate and resolve conflict with others in a cooperative way.
It is in her marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. She may see the qualities that she needs to develop more fully (described above) in her partner. It is important for Annie Besant to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in her life who express such attributes, as well as to develop them herself. Annie Besant has to put energy and attention into learning about others, and about herself through others.
The following are specific activities that will support Annie Besant in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Besant, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Annie Besant should develop true self-confidence and the willingness to put herself "out there", be seen and shine. Annie needs to be willing to take on a leading role. She needs to be a hero - a protagonist in her own story - by cultivating the courageous, active, and positive masculine qualities she possesses. Doing creative work that she is proud of - anything that comes from Besant's heart and bears the stamp of Besant's individuality - is important. Also, being a mentor, a helpful, encouraging force in the life of someone less experienced than she is a way for Annie Besant to grow and become more whole herself.
Annie Besant has to learn to communicate and express herself through the written or spoken word. It is best for Annie to study, learn skills and develop her intellectual interests and capacities. Besant needs to become involved in sharing and exchanging information with others and in developing her intellectual reasoning ability. Annie Besant should practice using her mind, her thinking skills and her ability to be objective. "Work smarter, not harder" might be a motto for her.
Writing, teaching, recording, transcribing, dialoguing, negotiating, mediating, communicating, or facilitating clear communication are significant activities for Annie Besant to pursue.
She needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Annie Besant has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. She needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Annie Besant has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating her ability to love and to receive love.
Annie Besant has a friendly, open and sociable manner and a strong desire to cultivate relationships with warm and congenial people. She may enjoy participating in artistic events and she likes to associate with art lovers.
Annie Besant has a very engaging manner in the company of others and her relationships with other people are likely to be harmonious. Some of her connections may prove to be helpful to Annie with her plans.
Besant is inclined to seek out relationships with people who have the same interests and she has a desire to work with them toward obtaining mutually shared objectives. Some of Annie's contacts or introductions could come about suddenly.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Conjunct Mars/MC
N. Node in Libra
N. Node in 7th house
N. Node Conjunct Sun
N. Node Conjunct Mercury
N. Node Conjunct Venus
N. Node Conjunct Sun/Venus
N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/MC
N. Node Opposition Uranus/Asc.