challenges and difficulties
Turing either overvalues or undervalues his possessions and assets. He can also go to extremes in dealing with bodily needs and desires, being either hedonistic or ascetic. Alan Turing may deny himself sensual pleasure and enjoyment of the fruits of his labors. He may also be stingy and unable to give freely. Many times Alan Turing feels that he does not have "enough" to make him feel secure, regardless of how much (money, insurance, etc.) he has!
He may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Alan Turing does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend himself from its dangers and its unknowns. Alan Turing must learn to overcome his ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Basically shy, Alan may become a bit inhibited when talking with other people. Alan Turing tends to withdraw from others and likes to live a humble, quiet live in seclusion. He may get involved with a group of a secretive nature, although Turing is not one to join groups in general.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Alan Turing instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Alan Turing needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Seeking harmonious interpersonal relationships, cooperation, and togetherness, as well as the desire to please or appease other people, are drives that come very naturally to Alan Turing - so much so that he seeks them out at his own expense. When he is under stress, Turing tends to look outside himself for approval or answers, and he leans on others too much. Therefore, developing self-reliance, and the courage to look inwardly for answers and forge his own path through life is a key factor in his self-development.
Alan Turing is often tempted to be less than completely straightforward about his intentions or desires, and he can become enmeshed in a quagmire of "little white lies". Stark honesty - both inward and toward others - is the only way out! This, however, leads to the need to confront some of Turing's most deeply ingrained fears, such as "what if they do not like me?" and "what if I have to go through this alone?".
Alan Turing needs to cultivate his ability to be assertive, take initiative and act on his own behalf. Directness and self-reliance are imperative.
It is deep within himself, as Alan Turing faces his own demons, fears, and struggles - those aspects of life that are not easily or readily shared, those parts of his life that Alan Turing keeps hidden from public view where he is most likely to wrestle with these issues.
The qualities described above can also be beneficially channeled into some sort of charitable work, altruistic service or ministering to people in need.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Alan Turing back, or which he is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Being bound to past events and experiences because of his desire to belong, deep attachments to family and the familiar (even if they are neither nourishing nor helpful), the desire to nurture or be nurtured by others, and a strong resistance to cutting the umbilical cord.
Alan Turing has a strong desire to share his opinions with others and is inclined to seek out people who have the same ideas that he has. He may enjoy studying and developing his intellectual interests with them.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Taurus
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/N. Node
N. Node in Aries
N. Node in 12th house
N. Node Opposition Moon
N. Node Conjunct Mercury/MC